Author: deftone20@bellsouth.net

This Life – Part 1

1977 would be a pretty eventful year.  A lot of events took place that may not have seemed life changing at the time but they have gone on to have a profound effect on us personally and as a society.  Apple Computer was incorporated.  I now type this blog on an Apple iPhone and we share the same birth year.  Snow fell in Miami Florida for the only time in history.  Also, as I type this blog, I am watching the Miami Dolphins struggle mightily in a playoff game in Pittsburgh where the temp is 12 degrees.  I found it coincidental but I don’t suppose it’s very meaningful.  Jimmy Carter, a peanut farmer from Georgia, was sworn in as President of the United States.  He was the first, and still the only, President from my home state.  A few years ago, I played on his secret service’s softball team in a game vs Plains High School alumni.  He pitched for the team.  How many people can say they’ve played softball with a President.  It was pretty cool.Fleetwood Mac released the Grammy Winning album, Rumours.  Last year, I took Alicia to see the Fleetwood Mac tribute band, Rumours, in Atlanta for her birthday, sort of checking off a bucket list item.  Not much of a chance seeing the real band anymore so this was as close as it got.  The Bee Gee’s released Saturday Night Fever.  The movie of the same name would soon follow later in ’77.  I always pictured my Uncle Speedy as the perfect Bee Gee.  Son of Sam was also associated with the disco scene and was captured in New York that year.  Led Zeppelin performed their last North American concert while The Clash released their first album.  A film named Star Wars hit the big screen.  I think it turned out to be pretty popular.  I remember the Ewoks and the original Chewy before special effects were so good.  There were others too like Smokey and The Bandit, Slap Shot and Close Encounters of the Third Kind.  Pretty big year in music and movies I’d say.The Toronto Blue Jays and Seattle Mariners would play their first baseball games.  Years later, I would be a Mariners fan thanks to Ken Griffey Jr. and would despise the Blue Jays thanks to Kelly Gruber.  Gruber was a hustler and While he would normally be a player I would root for, he stood between the Braves and a World Series with that hustle.  AJ Foyt won the Indianapolis 500 for the 4th time.  The AJ Foyt of my generation, Tony Stewart, is why I love racing today.  That, along with watching it on Sundays with my dad and grandaddy.  Reggie Jackson hit 3 homeruns in a World Series win over the Dodgers, lending to the nickname that would stick, Mr. October.  I guess I was destined to be a sports fan with this type of activity.1977 was the year Tandy was created.  If you aren’t from my generation, you probably don’t even know what this is.  But for me, it created my love for video games.  The Tandy Computer was the first console I played.  Bedlam was my favorite game and it was completely text with no action or graphics.  Sounds boring, I know.  But I spent hours trying to avoid being lobotomized by a crazy doctor.  It’s also where we got Paperboy, Pitfall and Downland.  Commodore and Atari also hit the scene in 1977.  What a year for gamer history!  You kids can thank these classics for setting you up for Madden and Call of Duty.  I would go on to specialize in video gaming for many years of my life.  Tecmo Bowl, RBI, Mario, Resident Evil, Fallout.  Of course, it’s a specialization that doesnt really count as specialization.The Pinwheel Network was created.  Better known now as Nickelodeon, this tv station was on in every house I went to as a child.  It’s still on at my house today with Spongebob Squarepants.  Earlier classics were Dusty’s Treehouse, Mr. Wizard’s World, You Can’t Do That On Television, Double Dare and Ren and Stimpy.  I’m pretty sure that was the “Golden Age” of television for my generation.  I don’t understand the stuff kids watch these days but that’s probably the way my parents felt about my shows.  TV was better in my younger days.  I don’t know whether that was because I was less knowledgeable about what was real and what was fake or if The years have just washed away the bad programming.Everything wasn’t all roses either though.  The King, Elvis Presley, died in August.  The world mourned the passing of one of the most influential musicians in history.  As big of a music fan as I am, I would have loved to see him play live.  I love a live show and I’m sure he put in some memorable ones.  Three members of Lynard Skynard passed away in a plane crash.  The southern rock legends would continue and still play today but the original band died that day too.  The King and Skynard in the same year.  Groucho Marx  and Bing Crosby also took their last breaths in 1977.  I guess 2016 was crueler in numbers as it relates to the celebrity death but these were equally big names.

All in all though, a pretty large year.    The most significant event of my life happened that year also.  On February 13, 1977, I was born.  I was the first grandchild on the Kelly side of the family and the second on the Shiver side.  Dusty beat me by a couple of years.  My dad, Dewey was (and still is) a truck driver and my mom, Pam, worked at the school system.  I was born into a relatively normal life in a relatively normal town.  A lot of abnormal things have happened over the last 39 years but my life has been pretty good.  My parents are still together after 40 years, all but one of my grandparents were able to see my children when they were born, I married my high school sweet heart and we’ve got our own pretty good life.  

But as I’m so close to reaching the big milestone of 40, it’s become an obsession of sorts to revisit my journey along the way.  I see a lot of things every day that take me back to some moment of my life that brings me joy, pain, laughter, fear or some other emotion.  There have been a  lot of “normals” along the way but there have been some events along the way that could have changed my path and led to a different present.  Life is funny.  Sometimes it’s sad.  But it’s life.  I have no idea what memories I’ll write about next.  I don’t know if I’ll write part 2 tomorrow or next week.  I don’t know if I’ll write about a year in my life or a several year span.  Or maybe just an event that happened and the lesson I learned.  I’ve shared several memories on the blog before but that’s what a big part of life is about to me.  Making memories.

It’s also fun to write about.  A lot of people and places intertwine during the walk down memory lane.  It’s not always about fun either though.  I have had some hard lessons I’ve had to learn along the way because I’ve made some bad decisions.  It’s also not always deep, profound and life changing either because I was a clown growing up.  I’ve enjoyed life along the way and I want to convey that too.  Overall, my life has probably been boring compared to others.  But there might be something in this journey that resonates or links us together.  There’s only one way to find out though.  And that’s to continue dive in and take the trip down memory lane.  And it all started in 1977.

J-Dub

Gems Of The Junk Wax Era

    As a 39 year old (40 in a month, geez), I began my sports card collecting in the late 80’s as a youngster of about 10.  I picked up a very small amount in 1987-1988 but I really hit my stride in 1989, at 12.  I loved the three major sports but baseball was the most accessible and the easiest to collect.  I would buy (or mom would), trade, build super teams and use my stat knowledge to help me in RBI Baseball on NES.  I took my cards to school, to friends houses and scoured Beckett Monthly to monitor the prices.  As a 12 year old, I fantasized about owning some of those mid 1950’s cards and being a sports card tycoon.  

I was dissapointed to find out that my dad did own some of those vintage cards but he and my uncle used them to make their bicycle spokes click or as a bat to hit tinfoil baseballs in the backyard.  They were sitting on a gold mine and didn’t even know it.  Mickey Mantle, Joe DiMaggio, Ted Williams, Willie Mays.  Those cards today are worth thousands if in the proper condition.  The kind of condition that is fostered by not using them as tinfoil ball bats.  Of course, therein lies the rub.  The reason they are so valuable now is there are very few in good condition because most kids didn’t know what they had.  They were collectible trinkets that came with gum and were just cool to play with.  Nobody knew they would explode some 30+ years later.  Only then did the majority of collectors start scrambling for good condition baseball cards.The hobby grew and reached a gluttonous peak in the late 80’s-early 90’s in what is referred to now as the “Junk Wax Era.”  Call it bad timing for me but I deem this era specifically as 1987-1994.  These years are debatable but card companies began ramping up production in 1987 to meet the new demand in the hobby and it ran extremely hot (and overproduced) to its peak and declined rapidly during the baseball strike of 1994.  Sure, there were tons more cards produced in the late 90’s that were rather weak but to be honest, I lost interest in 1994 with the strike and with turning 17.  I lost interest in baseball with many other fans when the players held out.  It took me a while to come back but I would eventually pick back up and am going stronger now than I ever have thanks to the additions of autographs and other cool products that have me reinvigorated.  

But back to the so-called Junk Wax Era.  There are a few reasons for this name.

  1. Cards from this era hold very little value with some exceptions that I will note later.  When collectors realized that cards had value, everybody wanted in.  The problem is that if everybody has something, that something is not very valuable on the market.
  2. Demand pushed supply.  And boy did supply explode.  There are rumors of some card sets in the early 90’s producing 5 million copies of a single card.  Any collector knows that the more of an item is available, the less valuable it is.  Pretty much like #1.
  3. Just like the collectors wanted a piece of the hobby, more card companies popped up and wanted a piece of the market.  What was once a hobby consisting of mainly Topps Cards had grown to include Donruss, Fleer, Upper Deck, Leaf, Bowman, Studio, Triple Play, Purina, K Mart, KayBee Toys, you name it.  Everybody wanted in.  To be fair, Bowman was an original card company but was bought out by Topps in 1956.  They would be out of the hobby until making a return in 1989.  
  4. Extremely large card sets were being produced in this era with some sets up to 800+ cards.  If there are 800 cards in a set, what are your odds of finding a valuable card in a 15 card pack?  These sets included everybody from the long reliever to the managers.  If you chose 10 packs of any one set in that era, you are most likely going to have 9 packs of commons by the time you’re done, if not more.

All of these reasons point to the product being “Junk”.  The wax part comes in with the wrapper.  Most collectors remember a time when cards were packaged in wax or cellophane wrappers. This changed in the early 90’s too as some companies began to experiment with tamper proof wrappers.  But wax was still available in most sets until later in the 90’s.  

While all of the above is to try to explain the “Junk Wax Era”, I’m actually here to wax poetically about it, no pun intended.  I thought I was alone in my affinity for the cards of this overblown era.  I didn’t imagine many people having fond memories of these overproduced cuts of cardboard.  My age helps.  I was a prime collecting target during that time and they are the cards I was raised on.  But still, I thought I was probably 1 of 10 people that might be pouring through eBay listings looking for a reasonable price on 1989 Donruss so I could go back to when I was 12.  But I knew each time I clicked “Buy Now”, I was just buying memories and nothing more.  Or so I thought.A few months ago, I was introduced to a podcast called “Wax Ecstatic” hosted by Matt Sammon.  If heaven were a podcast, this is how I imagine it would be.  On this podcast, Matt goes through a “monster box” of cards from his youth, one yearly set at a time discussing the card set and the player featured on his randomly pulled card.  I’ve learned quite a bit I didn’t know about these sets and the players themselves.  It’s also completely unleashed a wave of nostalgia that has me wanting to buy older cards again.  This podcast came along at just the right time for me as I had begun to bog down in the sheer number of products that are now available.  It’s also motivated me to dig through these old sets and compile this list.  So Matt, many thanks!  Check him out on ITunes or at @waxandgumstains on Twitter.  Sometimes, you just have to go back to a simpler time and enjoy what made you the collector you are today.

Which brings me to my list of 10 Gems of the Junk Wax Era.  There are certainly more than 10 as all lists are debatable and opinion but I have compiled a list of cards or sets or subsets that can make that rip through an old wax box an exciting trip down memory lane that could also potentially pay off.  The list is only in year order and will likely never be comparable to those 1950’s pieces of cardboard gold.  But let’s face it, the cats out of the bag and those values will never be seen again with common cards.  But it’s not always about monetary value either.  Sometimes, there is a ton of value found in nostalgia.

1.  1987 Topps – This one is pretty much related to nostalgia but this set may be one of the best complete sets made in the 80’s.  Topps used a lovely 1986 Station Wagon wood grain design that has made it a unique and lasting image in the card world.  I even created my own 1987 Topps this past summer.  There are quite a few nice rookies found in this set that include Jose Canseco (All Star Rookie), Mark McGwire, Wally Joyner, Bobby Bonilla, Reuben Sierra and Barry Bonds.  But my favorite rookie card of the bunch was the colorful Future Star of Bo Jackson.  Easily a top 5 all time card for me.  There are a lot of commons and manager cards that can be found in these packs too but the set is a must have for die hard collectors.  And, for less than $20 a box, the investment price point is a plus!

2.  1989 Fleer Billy Ripken – You’ll have to google this one to get the full story but this gem can actually be found in a ton of different variations but 5 main versions are discussed frequently.  In summary, Mr. Ripken was asked by Fleer to snap a photo for their baseball card collection and grabbed a bat with a hilarious obscenity written on the bat knob.  He’s holding the bat on his shoulder and displaying the dirty talk for all to see, allegedly unbeknownst to him.  The funniest version to own is the original card with the words inscribed on the bat.  This card actually made it off the press and into packs during early print runs.  It was eventually caught and Fleer tried to clean it up in a myriad of ways.  There is a black box version with what appears to be black electrical tape over the words but is actually just a photo shop.  Then a whiteout version, which is just how it sounds.  Then the black scribble version, again self explanatory.  Finally, there is the white scribble version.  I don’t know why they choose to goof this card up in so many different ways but thank God they did because it’s a fun card to chase.  This card even has its own website at www.billripken.com.  
3.  1989 Upper Deck Ken Griffey Jr. – Ok, this one actually might be “the card.”  I’ve discussed it in this blog before but I’ll give a quick refresher.  This is the first major card I actually sought out during the Beckett days.  This was a card that was valued at $100+ in the early 90’s and was available in packs that could still be found at card shops.  This wasn’t pie in the sky 1953 Mickey Mantle.  This was obtainable.  And wouldn’t you know, I didn’t obtain it until my mid 30’s when my wife bought me the complete set.  I tried for years to pull this card in a pack, refusing all along to pay the money for the single card.  In hindsight, I could’ve bought the card 5 times with the amount of money I spent on the packs probably.  I specifically remember a youth group trip to Helen when me and Ken Forrester bought some baseball cards.  He got one (maybe two if memory serves) and I got a John Olerud.  Jealousy was, and still is, a stinky cologne.  There are plenty of 1989 packs still available on EBay but the odds of pulling one from a pack have dwindled as the previously advertised random collation has been figured out by stealthy collectors and the cards have been picked over in most boxes and packs available.  Risky but still a fun chase whenever I have a few bucks burning a hole in my pocket.

 
4.  1989 Donruss – This may fall a bit flat but this one is a personal favorite of mine.  This was the first card set I was able to collect intensely.  It was readily available in the Camilla Wal Mart and the Suwanee Swifty down the street from my house.  You could find 1989 Donruss just about anywhere.  It was colorful, affordable and had Ken Griffey Jr. much more accessible to me.  I loved the Diamond King drawings, the MVP subset and the Rated Rookies.  Boxes of 1989 Donruss are still very affordable and you stand a solid chance of pulling a Griffey in 1 of the 36 packs that come in the box.  Of course, there are also Craig Biggio, John Smoltz, Randy Johnson and Curt Schilling rookies to find.  And if you want a particularly scary card, google the 1989 Donruss Ron Washington.  Eeesh.
5.  1990 Topps Frank Thomas No Name Front – This is an error card that still holds tremendous value.  The search of this card on eBay reveals prices ranging from $2,000 to $10,000 depending on whether it’s graded well or not.  I have no idea how many were printed or what the odds of pulling one are but they are considered to be the rarest error cards to be found.  They are rumored to only be available in boxes manufactured on the east coast before the error was found.  A little known, or discussed, fact is that there were other no name fronts that printed in the set and sell for $50-$75 on eBay as well.  Kind of makes me want to buy a box of 1990 Topps.  These types of prices are unheard of in the Junk Wax Era, with the exception of 1992 Bowman.  You probably have a better chance of winning the lottery but it’s still worth the occasional $20 bill to take a shot.

6.  1990 Donruss John Smoltz Error – I can hear the boo’s as I type this.  1990 Donruss may be one of the top 5 worst sets of all time.  I will openly admit that.  It’s horrible….abysmal.  Look up the definition of Junk Wax and you’ll see a picture of 1988 Donruss, 1990 Donruss, 1991 Fleer and 1993 Pinnacle.  But just look at this card.  How can anyone confuse Tom Glavine for John Smoltz?  I’m a Braves fan so it has some added value to me but this card belongs on my top 10 Junk Wax list.  I love it and there is nothing you can say to change my mind.  So, we’ll move on.

7.  Upper Deck Heroes Autograph Inserts 1990-1992 – Beginning in 1990, Upper Deck raised the bar on what was already an excellent entry into the hobby in 1989.  They introduced an autograph insert of Reggie Jackson numbered to 2500.  They followed it up with a Nolan Ryan insert in the low series in 1991, a Hank Aaron insert in the high series in 1991 and a Ted Williams insert in the 1992 set.  There is no real guess on how many of these cards are still out there in a wax box waiting to be found but the relatively low price point on these boxes make taking a shot worthwhile.  These can also be found on EBay for purchase but you better break out the checkbook.  While it’s hard to imagine that an autograph numbered to 2500 can compare to those today that are as low as 1/1, we are talking about one player in the set and print runs of astronomical numbers.  These are legit Junk Wax gems.  

8.  1991 Topps Desert Shield – Anybody my age remembers the first major war of our generation, Desert Storm.  Baseball cards were so big in 1991, Topps created a set and shipped them to Saudi Arabia for soldiers to collect.  The only real difference in the Desert Shield cards and basic 1991 Topps was the Gold Logo in the upper corner of the card created specifically for the set.  An article on www.sportscollectorsdaily.com details the thoughts of one collector who received the cards overseas.  He said that while some soldiers enjoyed them, many tossed them aside or burned them in 55 gallon drums.  I suppose there were more important things going on at the time.  But now, the Desert Shield cards are one of the most valuable sets in the card industry.  In 2012, a complete set sold for just north of $75,000.  Unopened boxes sell for $5,000.  Individual graded cards of stars like Chipper Jones, Ken Griffey Jr. and Nolan Ryan go for over $1,000.  Looking back on it, I should’ve brokered a deal with my neighbors dad for some of these cards in 1991 instead of asking him to sign my Desert Storm Tank Card.  Hindsight is 20/20.

9.  1991 Donruss Elite – The first elusive chase card for me was the Elite.  I tried for the Reggie Auto in 1990 but I was realistic in my chances, or lack thereof, of landing one.  The Elite Series introduced in 1991 Donruss was a different story.  This subset included 10 stars on cards with serial numbered print runs up to 10,000.  Again, it’s a far cry from the small print runs of today but in 1991, 10,000 card print runs were minuscule.  These cards were all valued over $100 in the Beckett magazine when they came out.  The packs were around $1.00 and there was a possibility of pulling a $100+ card.  A real possibility.  I watched one of my best friends, David Shook, pull an André Dawson one afternoon as we ripped packs at his house.  It was a party, let me tell you.  I never pulled one in the 1991 set but I did snag a Robin Yount in 1993.  It was a good one but not as good as it would’ve been in 1991.  Serial numbered cards weren’t all that new anymore.  This is another card that has an unknown number of copies still out there in unsealed packs.  1990 Donruss boxes can be bought for less than $10.00, just saying.

10.  1992 Bowman – This was on the most recent podcast of Wax Ecstatic and a big reason I decided to pan back over this era to remember the cards of value.  1992 Bowman is loaded with superstar rookies like Chipper Jones, Mike Piazza, Mariano Rivera and Manny Ramirez, among others.  These cards have held their value because of the strong rookie class and the relatively low print run, considering the year.  Boxes still sell for $150-$250 depending on the reliability of the seller but the cards are very valuable for the era and can be mega value for the era if graded well.  Perhaps the finest point of 1992 Bowman is the pure 90’s photography.  The cards are iconic in this realm.  Many of the photos aren’t in baseball uniforms but in swaggy clothing that can only be identified as early 90’s.  I don’t know where Bowman got the idea and it must not have been well received because it was a one hit wonder as 1993 was back to basic uniforms.  But damn am I glad they did it.  This one is a little pricey but you will find value in this set.

So, as you can see, the Junk Wax Era had some punch.  Of course for every 1989 Upper Deck there was a 1988 Donruss, 1989 Bowman and 1991 Score, but the era has the moniker for a reason.  I guess the moral of the story is that you can find value in different ways.  Sometimes, the cards can mean something to you.  Sometimes, they can be valuable and put a few dollars in your wallet.  Sometimes, they can just make you laugh.  But they make you feel something.  They take you back to a simpler time in your life.  They remind you what it was like to be a kid.  And for me, that’s what the hobby is really about.  Sure, I enjoy pulling the Russell Wilson auto numbered to 5.  But I also enjoy pulling the 1989 Topps Orel Hershiser because it reminds me of the night I talked my dad into buying me a pack on the way to the lake.  I was instructed not to open the pack until we got to the lake because I was in trouble.  I managed to slip the wax open and see the Hershiser.  I was just curious.  I sealed it back up but I think he caught the aroma of Topps gum and the stunt led me to not being able to open them until he decided I could, which was after the trip when we were back home.  That’s something money can’t buy.  

Here’s to continued collecting and hoping you can still enjoy some old wax from time to time.  The hits are still there.  They are just a little harder to find and a little less flashy than the newer ones.

J-Dub


The Life of A Dawg

I’ve been a Georgia Bulldog all my life.  I’ve had other teams that I’ve enjoyed watching along the way but the Dawgs have always been my team.  I have Red and Black coarsing through my veins.  But I’ll be honest, it hasn’t always been easy.  In fact, it’s been hard work a lot of the time.  My wife is a Dawg.  My daughters are Dawgs.  My nine year old is named Bailey, wink wink.  And we didn’t even mess around with our youngest – her name is Georgia.  There is no denying our heritage.  We love our state and we love our home team.  But sometimes I wonder how much our team loves us.Make no mistake, I am used to being disappointed with sports teams.  I’m from Georgia.  The Atlanta Braves won 14 consecutive division titles in the 90’s and early 2000’s.  They have 1 World Series ring.  The Falcons last made a Super Bowl appearance in 1998.  And the Hawks?  Well….Cleveland makes out like they have problems.  They still have Ohio State and Lebron.  My love for my team never falters but it’s not because they don’t test me.I started regularly attending Georgia games in 1996.  There have been some good times.  I was at the Outback Bowl beatings of the Big 10 and their studs Drew Brees and Ron Dayne.  We’ve been on a nice overall run against the Nerds from the Tech School over that last 20 years.  The Hobnail Boot was thrilling.  As was Michael Johnson in the back of the end zone on the plains.  But those highs have usually been equaled by excruciating losses.  I won’t list them all but there are some that really stick out and will live with me at least until we get back to the promised land that has eluded us since 1980.1996 – This was my first true in person heart breaker. Ole Miss comes to Sanford Stadium with a 1-5 SEC record while the Dawgs are at 3-4. Neither team was very good but we did have Mike Bobo, Hines Ward and Robert Edwards. We held a 13 point lead at the half. Ole Miss dominated us in the second half and scored with 3:19 left in the game to take the 31-27 lead. From our own 1 yard line, Bobo hit a streaking Hines Ward who had an 8-10 yard head start on the Ole Miss DB. One of the top 5 all time greatest Dawgs was hawked down at the Ole Miss 16 yard line and they proceeded to hold us on downs. Ball game….as we exited through the visitors section, they rained down cups and popcorn and ice on us. I will never forget that feeling. It’s come back around a couple of times too.1997 – #7 UGA at 7-1, riding high off of a huge win over the hated Gators welcomed the #16 Auburn Tigers to Sanford. The welcome wagon didn’t stay out long. Dameyune Craig (yeah, it’s spelled right) put up 45 big ones on us and crushed our dreams of winning the East. The Tennessee Vols, our only other SEC loss won the east and went on to beat Auburn in the SEC Championship.  I attended my frat SEC Championship game that year with my uncle, an Auburn fan.  Talk about bittersweet.1999 – Auburn again. This time they were a paltry 4-5 with a terrible quarterback named Ben Leard. We were 6-2 with hotshot Quincy Carter. Another in person doozy as UGA laid a tremendous egg in the first half and trailed 31-0 at the intermission. We tried to make it a game but lost 38-21 and our season was sunk once again. Jim Donnan as our head coach was getting pretty old to me at this point.2002 – After a couple more mediocre seasons from Donnan, we brought in Mark Richt in 2001. He paid some quick dividends and led us to a 13-1 record in his second season, and subsequently an SEC Championship, during that same year. Here’s where it gets hairy, no pun intended. We lost to the #22 Florida Gators thanks to a weak overall and truly abysmal special teams effort, which came to be the calling card of the Richt coached teams over the latter years. We gave up 21 catches to Carlos Perez and Kelvin Kight as a part of a 339 yard effort from Rex Grossman. And Mr. Billy Bennett missed a pair of second half field goals.  Oh and Penn Wagers was the official.  We eventually lost 20-13. That loss removed us from National Championship consideration. We finished 3rd that season and the only silver lining was a beating of FSU to close out the season. This may have been the closest we would get to a national championship game in the last 20 years, if not for what now feels like a tremendously long 5 yards in 2012. But more on that later.2004 – We started the season ranked #5 and reached #3 until we ran into #17 ranked Tennessee Volunteers and they held us to a paltry 56 yards rushing to beat us 19-14. Erik “freaking” Ainge!!

2005 – Lost heartbreakers to Florida and Auburn and eventually won the SEC Championship. Still lost the bowl game to WVU that year. Up and down season but should have been better.  We just haven’t been able to beat Auburn, Tennessee, Florida, GT and USC(e) in the same season.2007 – Here is another one that sticks in my memory. We finished the season ranked #2 in the AP poll but didn’t even get to the SEC championship thanks to bed wettings vs South Carolina and Tennessee in the early part of the season. We lost to USC(e) 16-12. 4 field goals is all we could muster thanks to some early season suspensions. Then came UT. They led 28-0 by halftime and we never had a shot. I remember this game vividly because my dad had asked me to go over to Fort Gaines and pressure wash the lake house. We had big open windows in the living room so I stood outside watching the game for much of the first half. We went on a tear to close out the season with 6 consecutive wins of 10 or more points. Too little too late though.2008 – #8 UGA vs #5 Florida – An in person drubbing. We drove all the way to Jacksonville Florida to watch the Gators beat us 49-10. This was a week after a huge win for us over LSU and we thought this was our year in Jacksonville. No such luck. We stayed until the bitter end watching Tim Tebow and Urban Meyer calling late timeouts to rub it in. They were still PO’d about our win in 2007. We wound up losing to Tech that year too.  Yeah, it was that bad.2009 – #4 LSU at Sanford Stadium. The Dawgs were ranked #18 and gave LSU all they could handle that day. I remember sitting in the Northeast end zone and this was the loudest I remember the stadium ever being until the last entry in this list. LSU mustered only two field goals for the first half and Georgia was scoreless until the 4th quarter. Finally, after a Shaun Chapas TD catch, Georgia broke through with a 16 yard TD pass to AJ Green with 1:09 seconds remaining to take a 13-12 lead. Then it happened. AJ Green was called for an unsportsmanlike penalty for excessive celebration that would later be admitted to be a mistake by the SEC. What they thought was AJ gesturing to the crowd was actually him stumbling to get out of the mob of teammates.  This gave LSU 15 yards on the kickoff and Trindon Holliday was able to make hay with the short kickoff with a 40 yard return. With :46 seconds remaining, Charles Scott took a handoff, getting initially stopped at the line of scrimmage, for 33 yards and a touchdown to seal the win at 20-13. This one was the first of three BRUTAL last minute losses for the Dawgs in the last seven years.2012 – Finished the season 12-2. This was the fateful 8 yards away season. We first messed ourselves up by losing to South Carolina but they went on to drop games to LSU and Florida to eliminate themselves from SEC contention. This team was loaded with Aaron Murray, Todd Gurley, Alec Ogletree, Jarvis Jones, Keith Marshall, Chris Conley and many others who are now in the big leagues. Of course, the team we played in the SEC Championship was also loaded with the likes of Eddie Lacy, Amari Cooper, TJ Yeldon, CJ Mosley and HaHa Clinton-Dix. We played one of the most physical games we had played since the Bowl Game against Hawaii back in 2007. Down 32-28, Aaron Murray completed a long pass to Arthur Lynch that got the Dawgs to the 8 yard line with less than 20 seconds remaining. Rather than clocking the ball, as has been debated to this day, the Dawgs ran a quick play and threw a pass toward the end zone that was deflected. Chris Conley, out of sheer reflex, caught the deflected pass at the 5 yard line and time expired before we were able to get off another play. That one stings to this day!!2013 –Auburn once again…..this one was a teeth buster. Auburn was ranked #7 in the country and had one of our former players, Nick Marshall, at quarterback. We were down 27-10 at the half but made a furious comeback in the second half, eventually taking the lead with 1:49 remaining on an Aaron Murray 5 yard run on 4th and goal. Elation!! One of the gutsiest performances I have ever seen because he had been mugged for almost 60 minutes. We then held Auburn, putting them in a seemingly unmanageable 4th and 18 from their own 27 yard line. Nick Marshall then threw a desperation pass that was tipped by two of our defenders, who ran into each other, and the ball floated in the air for Ricardo Louis to pull down the 73 yard touchdown pass with :25 seconds remaining to take us down. Murray even completed a couple more long passes with the remaining time but our final pass fell incomplete as time expired. If you think this is as close as you can get to winning a game, then losing, you are wrong.2014 – We jumped out and beat a very good Clemson team week 1 and it spiraled from there.  Todd Gurley got suspended for signing his own autograph for money.  He then came back only to tear his knee.  We did have an awesome freshman named Nick Chubb but he couldn’t play defense too.  We went on to lose to the Cocks by 3 and even dropped the finale to the Nerds.  We even lost to arguably the worst Florida team in decades.2015 – The year that ended the Mark Richt era.  We lost to UT (lost Chubb for the year too) thanks to a wide open drop by Reggie Davis walking into the end zone.  We dropped yet another to Florida and their first year coach.  We were humiliated by Bama at home for the second consecutive time.  We did beat Georgia Southern though, IN OVERTIME!  The season came to a close with Coach Richt exiting stage left and Kirby Smart taking the reigns.2016 – The freshest wounds hurt the worst but this one beats all of the above from the last two decades.  I admit that we are a team in transition.  We are a team that is changing identities.  We are playing a ton of freshmen.  I could’ve accepted a 3 point loss to UT in just about any other way than what happened.  We came out and played as physical as we have all year.  We hit, forced turnovers and even made a field goal.  You know the story by now. After leading the entire game, then losing the lead in the final few minutes, Jacob Eason, the freshman phenom, breaks away from a UT rush to hit a streaking Riley Ridley for a 51 yard TD strike to give the Dawgs a 3 point lead with 10 seconds remaining.  We are struck by another late game unsportsmanlike penalty, a la 2009 LSU, only this one is legit.  We lose 15 yards on the kickoff, then compound it with an offsides penalty.  After allowing a solid return, the Vols have 4 seconds to heave a desperation Hail Mary into the endzone.  And they hit it.  In a matter of 10 ticks on the game clock, we go from 4-1, SEC East drivers seat, huge upset to same old last second heartbreak.  We snatched defeat from the jaws of victory.

Another year, a new coach, a new team, same result.  But as heartbreaking as it is, I still feel very hopeful about the future.  Maybe I haven’t learned my lesson.  Maybe it’s the curse of being a Dawg.  But I see too many freshmen getting quality minutes.  I see a very talented QB.  I see a running back stable that is 4 deep.  I see a defense that looks like it’s finally gelling after 5 weeks, save for one fluky Hail Mary.  The defense only gave up 20 points to UT if you take away the TD on Eason’s fumble and the TD given to Dobbs that has now been deemed a mistaken call, once again too late.  Take away the fluke Hail Mary and they only gave up 13.  But you can’t take those away in reality.  Mistakes, youth and mental lapses allowed those points.  But all of those things are correctable.  And I have no doubt that Kirby is the man for the job.  So I’m going to keep my head up.  I’m not going to let this game convince me that we are stuck in the same old cycle.  I am going to look forward to continued growth.  I am going to look forward to the tremendous recruiting class that our coaching staff is assembling.  Our OLine will get better.  Eason will hone his skills with more game experience.  We will turn the corner.  And when we do, all of the misery we’ve experienced will make it that much sweeter.
Go Dawgs!!

J-Dub

Between The Hedges – A Progress Report

I believe that the beginning of week 4 is a perfect opportunity to assess what has transpired so far and what we might expect in the near future from our beloved Bulldogs in Athens. The start of the season has been widely discussed in UGA circles and those discussions have covered a pretty wide range from elation to depression to confusion and everywhere in between. The facts are not disputable. We have played 3 very different teams with one being a non-conference ranked opponent on a “neutral” field, another being an FCS school at home and the most recent being a conference opponent at their house. Those teams are a combined 4-1 outside of their matchups with Georgia. So with caveats and asterisks everywhere, which we will discuss below, we should all agree that we are in the best possible position after 3 weeks. We could reasonably be 0-3 right now, at least 1-2, based on the first three games but we aren’t. We are undefeated and have given our freshmen a load of game action as we prepare for the meat of our schedule. Before we get to that future schedule, let’s take a look at where we are now. These are my observations and you are more than welcome to disagree and provide counter points as that is what college football discussion is all about.

Coaching

The last three weeks have allowed the Richt faithful an opportunity to mock the hiring of Kirby and proclaim that we are no better. First, I disagree, but secondly and most importantly, it’s much too early to put any reasonable measurement on the transaction. I will tell you why I disagree through. I see us at no better than 1-2 with Richt at the helm of this years squad. I don’t believe he gives the reigns to Eason this soon. He was very loyal to his players, and I admire that to a degree. What that means is that he would have allowed Lambert to be our steady hand and keep us in ballgames. We do not win the UNC game or the Mizzou game in my opinion with Lambert at QB. Think about the past and how the quarterback situations have been handled. We would have seen glimpses of Eason but I don’t believe there is any way we go into week 4 with him being the undisputed named starter as we are now.

What Kirby and his staff have done so far is come in and opened up the competition for the entire team. Each player is being evaluated on a weekly basis and the players that want to be on the field are on the field. Tenure and experience aren’t the driving factor on roster decisions this season and that is the first time in many years. Kirby has also not been shy about that fact. He recognizes and acknowledges poor effort and poor performances and has been assuring of Bulldog Nation that it will not be accepted. No more status quo as they say. As for game day, I believe clock management and halftime adjustments have also been immediate improvements. We are 3-0 because we have overcome a deficit in 3 consecutive games in the second half. How many times did that happen in the last 4 years?

While this section is truly not meant as an indictment on Richt, this is very much a defense of what I believe to be an improvement in our coaching staff. We have wanted nothing more out of our head coach over the last few years than emotion and a sense of urgency and we have had that in the last three weeks. And let’s be honest, we all have eyes and can see what has happened on the field over that span. None of us are satisfied. The difference this year is we know our head coach isn’t either. When asked how it felt to be back home in Sanford stadium after the week 2 game, Coach Smart said, among other things, “we did not play to the level of our expectations or Bulldog fans expectations, we know that. We have to get better.” This was after a win. Refreshing. And one of the biggest worries was over whether we could maintain our recruiting edge and that has been answered with a resounding YES!

Offense

Offense has truly been a mixed bag so far in 2016. Week 1 started with Nick Chubb coming back from his brutal knee injury of 2015 to gash UNC for 222 yards and 2 scores. The game also included a couple of flashy plays from the young freshman, Jacob Eason. Enough flashy plays in fact to raise what was a dull roar to name him the starter, to a fever pitch. And we got our wish in week 2. It was clear in the Georgia Dome that we were a more potent offense with Eason at the helm. The field was stretched with his big arm and, for that game, helped open up running lanes for Chubb to seal the victory with a 55 yard scamper, putting a stamp on the Heisman hopeful’s return.  

Week 2 is a game we all would just assume to forget. The only benefit to arise from the game was Eason getting more reps and escaping with a W in his first official start. The performance was shaky and led to another week of questioning who the starter would be. We would not find out until just before the Missouri game that it would again be Eason. Only this time, Lambert never saw the field. Now, as of Monday morning, Eason has been named the starter for the upcoming Ole Miss game. I’ll call it progress.  Of course, there really shouldn’t have been any doubt after his performance this past weekend. In his 3rd game, and 2nd official start, he threw 55 passes, the most by a UGA quarterback since 2000. So much for easing into conference play. One of those 55 passes was the game winning touchdown with less than two minutes remaining in his first conference game on the road. Oh, and it was 4th and 10 so let’s give the kid some moxie points too. Also of the 59 passes, only one landed in the hands of the opposing team and only 4 drop backs resulted in sacks. Lambert was sacked 3 times in the first quarter of the UNC game, which supported one of his perceived weaknesses of holding the ball too long. Lambert does deserve a lot of credit for helping the kid get ready and become more comfortable in the huddle. It is nice to have a 5th year senior willing and able to do that for a young freshman. So let’s not just write Lambert off. I think even he knew that Eason’s talent was beyond comparison in our quarterback room so this is not meant to disparage his efforts.  

While Eason threw the ball what felt like 1,000 times this past Saturday, our run game had its second consecutive underwhelming performance. And not at the fault of the running backs themselves. There have been no holes to navigate at the point of attack and in fact, they have been met in the backfield on more occasions than I am comfortable with. Some of that is due in part to having a freshman quarterback and defenses daring him to beat them. Another is due in part to having the level of talent in the backfield. If I were a defensive coordinator sitting down to review film up until this week, I would be putting 8 in the box on every down as well. But perhaps the most alarming reason for the run game drop off seems to be the perceived underperforming offensive line. I use the term perceived because I really don’t think they are as bad as they may look due to the defensive alignments they are facing. Again, 4 sacks in 59 opportunities are not terrible. But 8 men in the box can’t be the only excuse and the coaches have acknowledged that improvement is necessary.  I have to believe that we are somewhere between the 289 rushing yards vs UNC and the 55 pass attempts vs Mizzou. If you told me at the beginning of the season that Nick Chubb would be healthy and below 100 yards in 2 of the first 3 games, I would not have predicted 3-0. It helped to get Sony Michel back this week and he provided some edge stress for the defense but Chubb is our workhorse and I feel much more comfortable when he tops the 100 yard mark. That means things are going well in the run game. If the run game improves, the game will slow down some for Eason. In addition to the offensive line issues, the wide receivers have also been called out for their unwillingness to get involved in the run game by being active blockers. That led to Jayson Stanley getting his first start against Mizzou, even though he is not 100% comfortable with the route tree yet. Add an above average number of dropped passes to the blocking issues and the wide receivers have underperformed to date. The tight ends have been non-existent, presumably because they are being kept in to help fight those 8 man fronts.  While the wide receiving group has underperformed as a whole, our clear cut MVP through 3 games has to be Isaiah McKenzie. I-Mac has been electric in every ball game and has developed great rapport with Eason and the offensive coordinator. Jim Cheney has found a number of ways to get him involved and I-Mac himself has improved his route running and hands tremendously this season, save a dropped TD against Mizzou. He made up for that with a beautiful catch on the game winning TD. He had 10 receptions for 122 yards and 2 scores. He was targeted a whopping 16 times. If Eason and McKenzie continue to blossom as a duo, that will soften up the running lanes for Chubb and also open up the passing game for Chigbu, Godwin, Ridley and our talented Tight End group.  

Going forward, we clearly need to improve our blocking up front. In addition, Cheney could improve on mixing up some of the play calling when running the ball. It was noted by Bill King on the Junkyard Blawg that when UGA lined up to run, it was mostly out of classic run formations. On the rare occasion we ran out of a spread formation, we were successful. You simply cannot load the box when you spread the field with 4 outside receivers. Eason also needs to keep improving and stretching the field to allow the run game to be freed up. The wide receivers need to cut down on the number of dropped passes and the tight ends have to get more separation when they are used in routes. We have the potential to be a truly explosive offense if we can improve in those areas. The more game reps Eason gets, the more comfortable he will become with the speed of the SEC and the playbook. I have to believe that it hasn’t been fully unleased on him quite yet.  

Defense

The defense this season has been a tale of two halves so far. We have looked unsure and confused at times in the first half of games, specifically the UNC and Mizzou matchups. They are two high powered offenses and have been able to move the ball seemingly at will on us during both 1st halves. Ole Miss may be (likely is) the best offense of the three and we can’t wait until halftime to get comfortable and start to be aggressive. UNC was a balanced attack with Elijah Hood and TJ Logan at running back and a group of 3 very talented WR’s. Missouri provided much more of a strain on our secondary and was held under 100 yards on the ground. Ole Miss will be as one dimensional as any of them as they have produced no run game to speak of. But they also have the superior quarterback when compared to the others and are going to provide the toughest test of the season on our pass defense.  In order to be ready for the pass offenses we face over the next several weeks, our defensive front is going to have to start getting to the quarterback. Aaron Davis, a safety, is currently tied for the team league with 1 sack. That group includes Trenton Thompson, Lorenzo Carter, Davin Bellamy and Natrez Patrick among its eligible members. Trent has been a formidable force in the run game and Roquan Smith has been excellent in coverage and moving from sideline to sideline in the run game. Carter and Patrick have been all but non-existent in the pass rush so far. That can’t continue against Chad Kelly and Josh Dobbs. If Kelly is given the time that Drew Lock was given, he will carve us up; much like Lock did the entire first half. Pressure on the quarterback was the key to our success in the secondary in 2015 when we were ranked #2 in the league.  Speaking of the secondary, Juwan Briscoe, Malkom Parrish and Maurice Smith have proven they can provide good coverage but they are as ineffective as anybody else would be when there is no pass rush. The secondary is being asked to cover for far too long on many plays. The ball hawking skills of Dominick Sanders, Aaron Davis and Quincy Mauger will only improve when the pass rush turns up the heat as well. Although, Mauger is tied for the league lead with his 2 interceptions through 3 games and one of those interceptions was truly a beautiful play. The secondary has tackled better this year and produced 5 turnovers in the second half of the Mizzou game. Those turnovers were the overlooked story in that game and gave Eason the opportunity to provide the heroics with less than 2 minutes remaining. The defense did not call it a night after that td though as they forced a huge fumble to seal the win.  Looking ahead, the defense will continue to be tested with Kelly, Dobbs, Jalen Hurd, Josh Malone, and Auburns spread offense. Our only hope at a solid overall season is with the defense providing some lights out performances in those matchups. We can’t ask Eason to throw 55 times or expect Chubb to rush for 222 each week. If the defense does not show immediate first half improvement this Saturday, I worry that Ole Miss will be too much for us. The need for pressure on the quarterback cannot be overstated. It’s what makes our defense work. Pressure spawns rash decisions by the quarterback, third and longs and turnovers. So far, we have not had that pressure on a consistent basis.

Special Teams

This is going to be short and sweet because this is our biggest deficiency. We have to get consistent touchbacks on kickoffs. Game 2 had several and cut out the potential for big plays in the return game. Touchbacks were nowhere to be found in the first or third game and Mizzou made us pay more than once. Our punt return defense continues to commit dumb penalties involving kick/catch interference. The play this past week was only a hair early but was also the most egregious thus far, resulting in Kirby Choates being kicked out during the second half and being suspended for the first half of the upcoming matchup with Ole Miss.  

Finally, it should be no surprise to anyone that we need a field goal kicker. What we have seen so far is abysmal and downright depressing. Perhaps we have been spoiled with the likes of Blair Walsh and Billy Bennett and Marshall Morgan over the last several years but extra points are even an adventure these days. Knuckle balls and shanks are becoming the norm and I currently have no faith in the kicking game. Special teams continue to be a disaster in Athens in some facet and I had really hoped we would see an improvement this year.

Odds and Ends

  • We have seen a large amount of freshmen get game action so far this year. Our starting freshman quarterback is the big story. But we had as many as 11 freshmen on the field between offense and defense this past Saturday. This is good in the long run but makes for some tense moments in the present.
  • Two names we haven’t seen much of yet are Mecole Hardman and Elijah Holyfield. Hardman picked up a fumble and returned it for a touchdown on the obvious kick catch interference call against Mizzou but it was good to see him in action. 
  • The “Get Back” coaches are having to work a lot harder this year than they have in the past. I see them quite often trying to get a coach back on the sideline. It’s good to see.
  • Recruiting continues to go well for our 2017 class with the addition of Mark Webb. We had to go into Pennsylvania to pull this kid so the coaches are working hard on the recruiting trail.  
  • I was in town for the home opener 2 weeks ago and discounting the game, Athens is as beautiful as always. I enjoyed the trip except for the nightmare that is parking. We walked past the indoor practice facility and it is coming along nicely.

Looking Ahead

Our next 7 games are conference opponents and include Ole Miss, Tennessee, Florida and Auburn. The next two weeks will go a long way in sorting out the SEC East. We go to Oxford MS this weekend to play the high powered offense of Ole Miss. They are 1-2 but have lost to both FSU and Alabama in that stretch. They put up 43 points on the vaunted Alabama defense in their most recent loss. Florida travels to Tennessee this weekend to provide what has begun as a shaky Tennessee campaign its first real test. Tennessee lost two of its best defensive players this past Saturday and Florida lost its starting quarterback so both teams are sort of hobbling into this one. Maybe they will continue to beat each other up. Then, when all the dust settles from this Saturday, the Volunteers come to Athens on October 1st in what shapes up to be quite possibly the biggest game of the year for Georgia. Someone in the East could very well be eliminated in the next 2 weeks, logically rather than mathematically. It’s also possible that all three teams come out of the next 2 weeks with 1 loss apiece making the UGA/UF game our biggest game of the year and the Tennessee/Alabama game the same for Vols fans. Are you excited yet, football fans?  

Here’s the bottom line. We are a good but not great team in the present. We are far from perfect. We have the potential to be great if we allow the coaches to continue to do what they are doing. It is unreasonable and unfair to believe that we would turn our coaching staff over, play 85% of the recruiting class in the first 3 games and start a freshman at QB and still go undefeated or be a lock for a conference championship. I read an article last night that said, “Rome wasn’t built in a day and neither are football teams.” Anyone who is paying attention can see the changes that are being made and the standards that are being adjusted. It will not happen immediately. We are 3-0 but could possibly be 3-2 at the end of the next two weeks. Do I want that? Absolutely not. Will I be standing on a ledge if we are? Of course not. I’m in this for the long haul and I truly feel something special happening with our football team. We just have to sit back and allow it to happen. If we stumble over a division title in the process, I will be thrilled but that truly wasn’t my expectation coming into this year and certainly isn’t after the first 3 weeks. We need to allow time for this to unfold. Be patient Dawg Nation!

J-Dub

The Art of Distraction

“Distraction – a thing that prevents someone from giving full attention to something else. Synonyms: Diversion, Interruption, Disturbance, Interference, Hindrance.”

I’m pretty sure we all learned what distractions were as kids. Sometimes there were good distractions. I think back to hanging out at the Legion Pool in Camilla. I was a 16 year old boy surrounded by girls in bathing suits. If my friends and I were talking, I probably missed half of the conversation because I was “distracted.” They could have been telling me that a spaceship was coming over the horizon and I would have probably just nodded and said, “yep.” I remember sports also took my mind off of school work or bad grades when I needed to recharge. I could turn on Sportscenter and forget all about that F that I may have gotten in Mrs. Williams History class. I don’t know if this one should be in the good category but it was good for me.

Of course, there can be bad distractions too. Texting and driving is a biggie these days. It’s even illegal in most places. That same distraction listed in the good section above is now a no-no as well. If I’m at the beach with Alicia and we are chatting and my eyes drift to the scantily clad beach goer next to us, my nodding and “yep” is likely going to be the dead giveaway to my transgression. I’ve been distracted by the TV and tripped over a toy in the floor. I was distracted once as a teen driver and backed right into my mom’s parked car in our driveway. I spent an entire 9 weeks distracted by Lewis Grizzard books in Senor Bryant’s Spanish class. No Bueno.  

All of those distractions are just normal life course events. They are everywhere. We have to train ourselves to block out distractions.  Sports teams are told not to listen to the media or read the newspaper because it could be a distraction. Some people put on headphones on the bus or the subway to block out the distractions. Part of the problem with distractions is that they feed our innate need to be involved in everything that’s going on. Without those headphones, you may want to hear what your neighbors are talking about on the bus. You never know, it might be juicy content. When a ball player hears the criticism that the coaches asked them to avoid, they feel the need to inject their opinion or defense into the matter in an effort to defend themselves or their team. It doesn’t matter that it is some lame sportscaster who gets paid to offer outrageous opinions. What matters is that this opinion has gotten under the skin of the athlete. And when an athlete loses 100% focus on their training or game, they are at a disadvantage. In the end, all it’s done is brought attention to the sportscaster, which is welcomed by them, and taken the athlete out of their game.  

Now is the time I should make clear that I am not a conspiracy theorist. I believe JFK was shot by Lee Harvey Oswald from the Book Depository. I believe that terrorists flew planes into the Trade Center and caused it to topple. I believe that there may be life forms in space but I don’t think we’ve been hiding them here for 100 years from the rest of the public. However, I also believe that everything is not always as it appears to us. Even with the few examples above, I believe there are things that we don’t, and never will, know. There are also things I think we probably shouldn’t know if it is a matter of national security. Conspiracy theorists don’t have an open mind. They would probably get a lot more traction if there were any give and take in their arguments. But no, they are usually so dead set on the conspiracy, that logic can’t be considered. So consider, in a tiny nutshell, my position on these things is that I don’t think I am lied to every time the news reports something major but I do believe we shouldn’t be totally dismissive of inconsistencies either. I think there is room for a little of both and I’d bet that most of the population is in my category on that. Maybe I’ll write more about that one day but that’s not the topic today.

Let me also take a moment to say that I am neither Pro-Clinton nor Pro-Trump. They both have a tremendous amount of deficiencies and I think we are in trouble with either. Further, anyone who knows me will confirm that I have an open mind and heart. I am not close minded when it comes to race, sexual orientation, gender or anything else that comes to mind. I do not like Country Music and I think the people that do should be forced to live in a state all their own, preferably Texas, but that’s where I draw the line on bigotry.  

So with those comments in place, let’s continue our discussion on distraction. I do believe, without a doubt but without concrete proof, that we are distracted on a daily basis by the news, social media and television from the bigger things going on that should have our attention. A prime example is to look at trending topics on Twitter at any point in time. While it’s true, that we all have the right and need for distractions, I am really talking about the things that get us all ginned up. Today, you have such gems as #TrentDilfer, #AGTFinale and #BlackRiflesMatter trending. They all have their own merits as topics and they all affect different groups of people in different societal circles.  But they are all overshadowing the bigger picture.Let’s take the #TrentDilfer hashtag. For those of you who don’t follow football, Dilfer is a former quarterback who is now a talking head on Monday Night Football for ESPN. There has long been a debate over whether or not he was a good quarterback. He has a Super Bowl Ring.  Dan Marino doesn’t but that doesn’t make him better than Marino. He is somewhere in the “game manager” category to be honest. Does he know about football? Sure. Is he one of the best ever? Not close. That aside, he now gets paid to express an opinion, HIS opinion. You may also be aware that a pro football player is currently expressing HIS opinion of the American Flag/National Anthem. And Dilfer shared his thoughts last night about said player. It wasn’t popular to the masses. It wasn’t all that popular with me either but because I disagree with his sentiments, not that I have a problem with him actually saying it. To be specific, Dilfer said the following:

“This is a backup quarterback whose job it is to be quiet and sit in the shadows. Yet, he chose a time when all of a sudden he became the center of attention. And it has disrupted that organization.”Colin Kaepernick has chosen to sit or kneel during the National Anthem in protest of what he sees as oppression against his race. That’s not for me to judge and I personally am not offended whether he stands or not. He is doing what he feels is the right thing for him. Further, as an old friend recently said, “I don’t pay you for your opinion.  I pay you to be a gladiator in an arena” ~ Jason Lee.  In reality, it should really have zero effect on people’s lives what this individual does during the national anthem.  And in a free enterprise society, which is what we are, you have the right to protest him for what he is doing by not going to any SF 49er’s games and not buying his jersey. It’s really kind of an open shut case. Do I agree with it? No. I’m not running out to add any CK memorabilia to my sports collection anytime soon. Does that make me racist or close minded? I guess that’s for you to judge. I feel like I have just as much right to disagree with him as he does to do what he’s doing. I think it’s disrespectful to our country and the men and women who protect it. To each their own.

The issue I have with Dilfer’s statement is that CK is not doing what he is doing on behalf of backup quarterbacks everywhere. His role on the team has nothing to do with what he is doing, if he is to be taken at face value. Again, I disagree with what he is doing but the capacity in which he is doing it matters not to me. By Dilfer’s logic, CK should be quiet if there is mass sexual harassment happening in the organization because, well, that’s his job as a back-up quarterback, to be quiet. See, my point is that it’s ok to disagree with Kaepernick for what he is doing. It’s also ok to agree with him if you want. Doesn’t mean that I have to and it doesn’t mean that I am racist if I don’t.  I don’t think it’s ok to forbid him to do it either. Let the free market speak for whether or not it should affect his livelihood. By that same token, I think it’s ok to agree or disagree with Dilfer’s comments in substance. I think he has the right to say anything he’s willing to say so long as it doesn’t cross the line of what his employer has deemed appropriate or innapropriate. I just personally disagree with both of them.  

Here’s where it gets muddy. If you go to social media (and I’m going to tie all this up in the end, I promise), here is what you get on each side.  For the pro- Kaepernick, it’s his right to do what he is doing because this is America and he is entitled to his beliefs.  Dilfer is an idiot and should be fired for being so insensitive.  For the anti-Kaepernick, he’s anti-American and should be outright released by the 49er’s.  Dilfer hit the nail on the head.  Here’s the rub.  Either they are both out of line or neither are.  Either their employers should hold them to a certain standard or they should allow them to be individuals.  Either it’s their right or it isn’t.  It’s that simple.  Again, I don’t have to agree or like either one of them.  I just don’t have to be so damn offended by either of them either.  I have the right to be indifferent.

So there is a big fat distraction right in front of us.  One football player (sure, others have joined) has divided our entire nation with one act of Heroism or Marxism, depending on the kind of glasses you are wearing.  It’s all anybody can talk about and it’s just what the men in black suits want us to focus on.  While this has taken over social media and the water cooler, if they exist anymore, 1984 becomes more and more like 2016.

Here’s a small sample:

  • Our way of life is being threatened every day.
  • Our religious liberties are being taken away.
  • We are being disarmed.
  • Many of our people are unemployed.
  • Many people have no healthcare.
  • North Korea just tested another nuclear weapon.
  • The US just gave Isreal $38B while we have homeless veterans and starving children.
  • One of our presidential candidates is a reality tv show star that is a good real estate developer.  He continues to say “disaster” over and over and over without offering reasonable it rational ways to fix it.
  • Another of our presidential candidates wouldn’t know the truth if it was a pants suit.  She is also having what appears to be major health issues and may even be using a body double – if you are one of those conspiracy theorists.  Have you seen what 4 years of presidency has done to health in the past?
  • We are still pushing for a cease fire in the Syrian craziness that seems to be never ending.
  • People are plotting to kill us (Americans) at this very moment.
  • There is a push to impeach the IRS chief.  The whole thing may be abolished one day.
  • Innocent Americans are being killed in our streets.
  • Innocent police officers are being targeted by the very citizens they are trying to protect.
  • Rules and restrictions are being shoved down our throats daily that continue to limit our ability to live freely.

Not one of those items are trending on Twitter.  You may not have even known some of those things.  I had to look some of it up myself.  The point is that there are much bigger issues than whether or not a football player stands for the national anthem and what a former quarterback thinks of it.  I totally get that it’s a big issue for certain groups.  But the whole reason he’s doing it isn’t even being discussed.  And personally, I don’t think what he’s doing has any tangible affect on why he’s doing it.  I just don’t make the connection.  But again, I’m indifferent.  

In conclusion, we just have to understand that we are all different and we see the world through our own unique set of eyes.  But in the end, I think we all want pretty much the same thing. We want to live our lives, raise our children, financially support our family and feel safe when we go outside.  But we are more divided now than we were 15 years ago.  We are moving backwards instead of forward.  And we aren’t doing ourselves any favors making our way through this world focused on the tearing each other down.  Eventually, we are going to lose our focus and we are going to back into that car in the driveway.

J-Dub

 

 

 

Living In Moments

Are we getting the most out of this life?  It’s hectic and there’s deadlines and milestones and responsibilities.  What’s your life story?  Are you going from event to event flying by the seat of your pants or are you really taking in the scenery as you go?  It’s really quite difficult sometimes to do the latter.  Maybe that’s why memories can stir such nostalgic emotions.  Because it’s usually only after we’re done that we reflect on the good times or the positive feelings.  If that’s the case, only if we are blessed with a long and full life will we recognize the great times and experiences we truly shared with our closest companions.  I think we all owe it to ourselves to “stop and smell the roses” on a regular basis.  But it’s really not that simple.

I believe that yesterday was one of the few times I was able to just live in the moment for tons of consecutive moments.  From the time I woke up until the time I went to bed, I was present and conscious.  The bad part is that I don’t really know how I did it so I can keep doing it.  It just happened organically.  It really was a fullfilling day.  Even normally stressful or difficult moments were slowed down and felt like the bullet dodging scene in the Matrix.  And I can honestly say I got what life offered during that time.  It felt good and feels even better when I think back on it now.  

Anybody who knows me well enough will tell you that I can be a little boorish and selfish when football season arrives.  I’m not real open to enjoying other things during this time of year.  For better or worse, that’s me and I admit it.  I’m thankful for those that understand and forgive me for it.  There is UGA football, pro football, fantasy football and occasionally video game football.  Part of it stems from nostalgia, once again.  I remember spending this time of year bogged down in Tecmo Super Bowl seasons, watching football games, going to UGA games, collecting football cards and playing in the front yard all throughout my formative years.  It didn’t hurt that I attended a “football school” during that time either.  Football is in my blood.  It’s a part of my soul.  I watch it intensely and deeply and it means something to me.

That being said, even going to “fun” events can be less fun around me during these months.  I’m not smiling and singing happy birthday if Georgia is losing in the background.  I’m not laughing it up at the Supet Bowl party if Cam Newton is winning.  I’m not very jovial if my starting fantasy running back gets yanked after a fumble in a crucial matchup with a heated rival.  I understand that it is a weakness for me.  I get that it’s not a good look.  Trust me, I really do.  But it hasn’t changed in many years and sometimes seems like it’s only getting worse.  And I am addicted to the feeling, good and bad.  I love it!  

So going to a UGA game for me can have all sorts of emotional ups and downs.  It starts with planning in general.  Athens isn’t a Sunday drive location.  It’s a solid 3 1/2 hours, including about 2 of those hours on two lane roads.  And about 90,000 people are spread out over those two laned roads on that weekend doing the same thing I am.  So planning is an important and sometimes stressful start to the trip.  Overnight stay or not?  If so, where, if not an expensive room in Athens?  All of it depends on game time and game importance.  12 o’clock games are always the toughest.  It’s usually a mandatory overnight stay unless I am all of a sudden in the mood to get up at 5:30 am and strike out on the road.  Football would be the only motivation I ever have to do such a thing.  

Why 5:30 for a 3 1/2 hour trek to a 12:00 game, you ask?  Because when you go to a UGA game, you don’t show up at 11:45 and take your seat.  There’s parking.  There’s a Dawg Walk that is very important that happens a couple hours before kickoff.  The fans and the players feed off of it.  There’s milling around various landmarks to take in the atmosphere and exchange “Go Dawgs” with your red and black brothers and sisters.  There’s the bookstore and it’s powerful allure.  There’s finding Hairy Dawg for a picture.  There’s paying respects to the fallen but never forgotten UGA’s of the past. There’s finding the spike squad for pictures.  And all of that is done before settling into your seat for some of the traditional experiences in Athens like the Battle Hymn of the Republic, the Welcome to Sanford highlight videos on the Jumbotron and the stirring Bulldog Saturday introduction video voiced by the legendary Larry Munson.  It’s not just a football game.  It’s really close to a religious experience.

So I know what you’re thinking right now.  This sounds exhausting.  Truth is that it can be sometimes but it’s part of fandom when you live and die with your team.  But that’s sort of the point of this blog today.  Any time you’re really invested in something, it has the tendency to take away your ability to live the experience.  That didn’t happen yesterday and it was such a soul cleansing experience.  I know, dramatic right?  Well, hear me out.  I’m talking about taking one of the most important “things” (outside of family and friends) in my life and having it truly wash over me.  I lived the moments yesterday and it was good.  First, it was my first time taking Bailey to a game with it being just us.  We left on Friday evening and stayed in Covington, about 45 minutes outside of Athens.  The day started at 8:00 with a football sunrise and no rush whatsoever.  Bailey was in a great mood and she said out of the blue, “Thank you.”  When I asked what for, she said “for bringing me to the game.”  That was pretty special.  We got ready and had some breakfast downstairs before we made the short commute over to Athens.  It was a very scenic ride and I caught myself thinking that if I ever moved, this would be my dream spot in Georgia.  Such a beautiful area.  We rolled into Athens and spent probably 30 minutes riding around looking for the best parking.  You go knowing you’re going to have to pay to park and you’re going to have to walk.  But we just rode around the campus and watched the sea of people in red and black hanging out at tailgates, playing cornhole and throwing footballs.We found our parking spot and started walking the campus.  First, I showed Bailey the Vince Dooley statue and told her who he was.  Then, we checked out the practice field and the indoor practice facility “under construction”.  She was pretty impressed with Stegeman Coliseum as well.  We walked for about 20 minutes just talking and looking around.  Then we got to the Dawg Walk area, which we caught the end of, and looked at some vendor merchandise.  She picked up some UGA sunglasses and some face stickers and we moved on to the Tate Center to get some eats and see some more cool Athens trademarks.  We wandered into the stadium and walked around field level to see the field, players and the Spike Squad.  We walked around really with no purpose except to see the sights.  We made it to our seats with more drinks and food and watched all the Pregame festivities.  During that time, they played a video dubbed “Coming Home”, highlighting Kirby’s return to Athens as Head Coach.  I had seen the video on YouTube but it took on a new feeling in person at Sanford Stadium.  After the video, I put my arm around Bailey and told her, “No matter where life takes you or what road you travel, your home is always here.  That G is your home and you can always come back.”  I don’t know why I did but I felt it at that time.  And she got it and smiled.  The sun went in and out of cloud cover at just the right moments alternating heat and a cool breeze.  We watched Eason complete a long pass on the first drive and Chubb finish with a TD run.  Bailey said, “Eason is good!  And Chubb is back!”We didn’t expect a competitive game but FCS opponent Nicholls State had other plans and that would be the last “good” drive of the game for UGA.  We watched the halftime show and decided to walk around more for the second half.  We actually walked away from a 10-7 game at the half and I was totally ok with it.  Of course, we never left sound distance of the PA and there were TVs everywhere.  But I’ve never left a live game like that.  We found our way to the Kona Ice vendor and then the tent sale at the bookstore.  There was something surreal about walking around with Bug and hearing the ebb and flow of the crowd.  We went inside the bookstore and looked at tons of UGA gear.  We got to see Isaiah McKenzie break a 66 yard TD on four TV screens put together.  We picked up a few items and walked out to the bridge with Georgia leading by a slim 26-24 margin.  With 3:00 to go, Bailey sat on my shoulders and we watched the Dawgs grind out a few first downs and run the clock out from the bridge overlooking the stadium.  Bailey reached out to initiate a high five and once again told me “Thank you!”  She didn’t understand or even care that we just survived one of the biggest scares in our football history.  Losing to an FCS opponent in the second game of the season would have been devastating.  I understood it full well but for once, I was happy to win and decided to reserve my review of the performance for later.  We were 2-0 and for Bailey and I, that’s all that mattered.  And really, that’s all that should have at that time.We took the same walk back to the truck.  Back by the Stegasaurus, the practice field and Vince.  And the 3 1/2 ride back really didn’t feel like one.  Bailey fell asleep pretty quickly and I zoned out with other college football games on the radio.  We stopped for supper in Macon and got home around 8:30.  We were both exhausted and didn’t take a lot of convincing to call it an early night.  This was a great day for a lot of reasons and it could have been a total stress event.  For that, I am thankful  for Bailey’s genuine love for Georgia and desire to experience it with me.  I’m invigorated by my own ability for one day to enjoy the moments instead of getting wrapped up in what could have been negatives.  Parking was a nightmare but we didn’t let it affect our day.  It was hot and we were sweaty and getting burnt as time moved on but we rolled with it.  Bailey never lost her composure.  We allowed an inferior opponent to go toe to toe with us in our stadium in our home opener but in the end, we won.  And whether by 2 or by 40, it shows up as a W.  And so does the day as a whole.  It’s a day that I will remember when I’m old and feeble and hopefully one Bailey will too.  The takeaway for me is to try, though I know it will be hard to duplicate, to create more days where I can enjoy the moments unfolding around me.  It’s so easy to get wrapped up in arguments, being uncomfortable or being underwhelmed by the effort of your football team.  But amid those issues, there is so much more there to get out of our experiences.  It starts with you and the people you have around you.  You’ve got to want to avoid the drama and the negativity that so many carry.  It’s not always easy but if you want to really live, you have to do it.  And yesterday, I really lived!

J-Dub

Georgia vs North Carolina – The Preview

The Georgia Bulldogs have opened seasons against higher ranked teams than the #22 North Carolina Tar Heels. They have, of course, opened seasons against JV teams as well. However, I would argue that this is the biggest season opener of my generation. You may argue otherwise, but hear me out. We open the season against a top 25 football team that was only a touchdown and 2 pt conversion away from defeating Clemson (eventual Nat’l Title Contender) in their conference championship last year. UNC finished the season 11-3 and went 8-0 in the ACC. Those three losses were by a combined 23 points. They set school (and some ACC) records in points scored and yards gained per game. The offense was extremely prolific. The defense is in their second year under the tutelage of familiar foe, Gene Chizek. Say what you will about how Chizek performed at Auburn without Cam Newton, but he can coach defense. They are most assuredly expected to be better this year on that side of the ball. It’s true that they lost some key players to graduation last year but they return a fair amount as well. But, more on the roster later.

Aside from the opponent for Saturday’s kickoff game in Atlanta, there is plenty on the Georgia side to contribute to this claim of “biggest season opener of my generation.” This season opener marks the first one in the last 15 years with a new head coach. That coach is former Bulldog player, Kirby Smart, who comes with an extensive resume of winning and pretty lofty expectations. He has turned the staff completely over, with the exception of Kevin Sherrer and Tracy Rocker, the lone holdovers from 2015. Nick Chubb, a 2015 Heisman hopeful, returns from a gruesome knee injury suffered in October 2015 against Tennessee. He was the heart and soul of the offense when Gurley was hurt in 2014 and for the first half of the season last year. This will be his first game action in almost a year. The most decorated and highly touted quarterback since Matthew Stafford, Jacob Eason, may or may not get his first college start Saturday, but we know he will see the field. A new era is beginning in so many ways.

The game will be played in Atlanta GA as part of the recent creation of the SEC vs ACC Chick Fil A Kickoff Classic, so a neutral site of sorts. Its right in the middle of one of the most exciting opening season schedules in many years. The weekend includes Auburn vs Clemson, Alabama vs USC, LSU vs Wisconsin and Ole Miss vs FSU, to name only a few. Our game kicks off Saturday at 5:30. There has been an ever growing rift between the SEC and ACC fans as we battle over jabs and records over the last few years. This will be the biggest test in a while with the SEC being given the top 3 ACC teams to face off against on the opening weekend. Anything is possible this weekend but the SEC will need to go at least 2-1 in those 3 games to retain bragging rights. ACC fans would love nothing more than a sweep of Georgia, Auburn and Ole Miss, unless they could somehow include Florida and Alabama. 

Let’s take a closer look at the teams and matchup.

Georgia BulldogsThe biggest question on the mind of Georgia fans as of this writing is, “who will be the starting qb?” Freshman Jacob Eason is competing with fifth year senior Greyson Lambert for that distinction. It is the general thought that Brice Ramsey is no longer in that discussion and will serve as a backup to both. There are two logics in this battle. One is that Eason is the future, Chubb is healthy and we know what we have in Lambert, so let’s go with Eason. The other is that Eason is a true freshman, UNC has a very good secondary and Chubb is healthy so let Lambert protect the ball and manage the game. At this very moment, I find myself somewhere between the two. I would like to see Eason take over the offense and see what he has. I also don’t want to put him in a position to fail early and affect his confidence. It is true, we know what we have in Greyson Lambert, and it’s not a big flashy arm. It’s a steady, calming presence in the huddle that will protect the ball. He will not win any games on his own but likely won’t lose it either. This is where the addition of Kirby Smart as head coach makes things tough. If Mark Richt were still in Athens, I would wager my paycheck that Lambert would get the start and Eason would get a series in the first and second half. But again, now, anything can happen.Aside from the quarterback position, there aren’t many questions as to who will be on the field on the offensive side of the ball. The question of whether or not Nick Chubb would be ready was answered earlier this week with the official word coming from Smart that he would play and start. Sony Michel is most likely out until the Missouri game but Brendan Douglas, along with freshmen Elijah Holyfield and Brian Herrien, will provide support in the running game. I keep expecting Tae Crowder to appear on the depth chart but to no avail. The Dawgs will likely rotate 6 offensive linemen with Brandon Kublanow, Isaiah Wynn, Dyshon Sims, Tyler Catalina and Greg Pyke starting. Lamont Galliard will get a large amount of playing time in that rotation. The wide receivers will be a mixture of young and very young guys. Michael Chigbu will be the big receiver while Terry Godwin and Reggie Davis will stretch the field. Jayson Stanley and Riley Ridley should see some time as well. Expect to see doses of Isaiah McKenzie in the slot and at occasional running back as well. Jeb Blazevich was expectedly named the starting tight end but I expect to see Jackson Harris and Isaac Nauta on the field Saturday.

Regardless of the starting quarterback, the obvious strength of the Georgia Bulldogs is the running game. The obvious 2015 weakness of the UNC Tar Heels was run defense. I expect to see double tight end sets quite often with Nick Chubb shouldering the bulk of the offense. Not only is that our strength, it also keeps the high octane offense of UNC off the field. This game will be won with ball control and controlling the clock. If Georgia is successful on the ground, it will take a lot of pressure off of the quarterback and a defense that is learning new terminology in a new system from a new defensive coordinator. McKenzie and Godwin should get action in the run game as well to try and keep the defense on their heels, no pun intended. But ultimately, if Georgia wants to control this game, they have to punch UNC in the mouth and keep hitting them until the final whistle blows. You do that with one of the biggest offensive lines in college football and Nick Chubb.The defensive side of the ball seems “relatively” set with their position players with a couple of extra hands that will rotate in on a regular basis. The defensive line will start Trent Thompson, John Atkins and DaQuan Hawkins-Muckle. Trent Thompson is a local boy that we are familiar with down here in southwest Georgia. We are used to seeing him control a line of scrimmage and I am expecting him to take that next step this year. Atkins has fought through some injury concerns but appears ready and has received rave reviews from the staff. Our strength on defense can be found in our linebacker corp. Lorenzo Carter and Davin Bellamy will be the outside backers and are two freakish athletes. Tall, big and fast. This will be their first year as full time starters and they will be asked to carry the load on defense.  

The inside backers will be a rotating threesome of Natrez Patrick, Reggie Carter and RoQuan Smith. The loss of Jake Ganus will be felt in the leadership category and Jordan Jenkins and Leonard Floyd will be missed in the pass rush but this is an extremely capable group. Finally, the defensive backfield should be strong but is currently a muddled mess as it relates to starters. Malkom Parrish and Juwan Briscoe appear to have locked down the starting cornerback spots but safety and the STAR position will rotate some combination of Dominick Sanders, Aaron Davis, Quincy Mauger, Rico McGraw and Maurice Smith. Mauger appears to be the odd man out at this time, provided that McGraw and Smith are interchangeable at the STAR as I expect.  

Defensively, Georgia will look to remain strong in the secondary, where they finished 2nd in the SEC last year. The secondary had a tremendous amount of help from Floyd, Jenkins, Ganus, Carter, Patrick, Thompson and Sterling Bailey last year so I look for the front seven to maintain their intensity and get after the quarterback in this aggressive defensive scheme. Special teams should be improved by the mere fact that we finally hired a special teams coach and he comes from a very good background in the department. His last name is Beamer. I expect Mecole Hardman to contribute immediately in the return game. We might even see some trickery from time to time as opposed to the predictable phase of the game over the last several years.

 North Carolina Tar HeelsNorth Carolina does not question who their starting quarterback is heading into Saturday’s opener. That would be Mitch Trubisky. Trubisky was a highly touted recruit when Larry Fedora took over as head coach at UNC. He is a junior and was fully expected to contribute before now. However, a guy named Marquise Williams came along and he led them to an 11-3 record last year. Trubisky finally gets his shot in 2016 and appears to be a fan and teammate favorite. In limited work in 2015, he was an eye popping 40-47 with six touchdowns. He was also named Mr. Football in the state of Ohio his senior year of high school. He has some solid weapons at his disposal as well in Mack Hollins, Ryan Switzer and Bug Howard. Mack Hollins stretches the field and is a tall receiver that is very tough to cover one on one with a smaller cornerback. However, he is suspended for the first half of the game due to an illegal hit in the bowl game last year. When he makes his appearance in the second half, expect Trubisky to look his way often if the Bulldogs have not covered him up with additional help. Switzer is a Wes Welker type slot receiver and return specialist that knows how to find open holes in zone defense. He may present a strong matchup issue with our bigger backers. Roquan Smith or the STAR would be ideally set up to cover him. Finally, Bug Howard is a 6’5 monster from Wilcox County that will deserve plenty of defensive attention as well.If the receivers weren’t scary enough, UNC boasts one of the best, and underrated, running backs in the country in Junior, Elijah Hood. At 6’0, 220lbs, he rushed for 1,463 yards in 2015, while scoring 17 touchdowns. He was not a big threat in the passing game with only 13 receptions. Senior RB TJ Logan, is a smaller back that is used more in the passing game and would be a starter on most ACC teams. He has the unfortunate problem of being behind a back like Elijah Hood. I’m guessing Keith Marshall and Sony Michel know how he feels. The offensive line returns 3 starters and is less experienced than in 2015 and may be a weakness for the team in the early going. The youngest position on the team is TE with one sophomore and two freshmen. This won’t help the experience on the offensive line.The Tar Heel offense set 62 team records in 2015. You read that right, 62 team records were set on offense in 2015. Those included 570 points in a season, 40.7 points per game, 6,817 total yards, 486.9 yards per game, 73 touchdowns on the season, most rushing yards and rushing touchdowns and most passing yards and passing touchdowns in a season. That offense returns 7 starters. That is the definition of prolific. That is what the Bulldogs are preparing for while Bulldog Nation frets over whether Jacob Eason or Greyson Lambert starts the game at quarterback. Have I painted a scary enough picture of what our defense has to face this Saturday? The Bulldogs are capable, no doubt, but they will have a tremendous challenge in front of them.Where UNC was vulnerable in 2015 was on the defensive side of the ball. The defense returns 6 starters from last year’s unit, including standouts M.J. Stewart and Des Lawrence in the secondary. The secondary is the strength of the defense and will present both Eason and Lambert with confusing looks. Again, more reason for the Bulldogs to hammer the running game early and often. The linebacker group is very young but is athletic and looking to help the secondary match or improve on its 15th ranked pass defense. Cole Holcomb is a former walk on getting his first start on Saturday at the outside backer position. Cayson Collins is the only upper classman of the linebacker group with sophomore Andre Smith getting the start as the third backer. The pass defense only allowed 6.1 yards per pass attempt and had 17 interceptions. You do not attack them through the air.

The defensive line on the other hand, was a veritable sieve in 2015. They allowed an awful 5.13 yards per rush in 2015, bad enough for 109th in the country. Remember, there are 128 teams in that ranking. Nazair Jones and Mikey Bart are two returning linemen to the unit and they are looking to improve with the addition of youngster Jalen Dalton. This group will be attacked frequently by the Dawgs and rightfully so. If the offensive line for UGA gels early, it could be a long night on the ground for this unit. The prolific offense doesn’t help a unit like this without depth as well and UNC doesn’t have much.

Summary and Prediction

This is a lot to take in and we don’t have much time left to do it. If Georgia wants to come away with a W in week 1 of 2016, there seems to be a specific formula that plays out in the above analysis. Run the ball, run the ball, run the ball! This accomplishes several things. It keeps UNC’s high scoring offense off the field, it helps break in a freshman quarterback and it attacks UNC’s defensive weakness. On defense, the Bulldogs are going to have to play fast and be very active in the run pass option. You have to believe that Kirby Smart and Mel Tucker will have them as prepared as possible through the summer work. UNC players are on record as calling this the most important game of the year for them. They lost the season opener last year to another SEC opponent, USC(e). They just didn’t realize how embarrassing of a loss that would turn out to be. They will come in to Atlanta with a chip on their shoulder. They are in the little brother ACC conference, they haven’t fared well against SEC competition and they are on a big stage. The lights of national TV and the Georgia Dome are bright.

Even though UGA comes in with a higher national ranking, I would venture to say that the expectations are higher for UNC this year. They are coming off of an 11-3 season and a close conference title game. UGA has a new coach, new scheme and freshman QB. We want to win now but we also understand that there may be growing pains. With that being the case, I will give the pressure edge to UGA. The offensive edge leans to UNC and the defensive edge goes to UGA. There is also a lot of momentum in Athens with the new coach, great recruiting class and they are coming off a bowl win against Penn State in their last official football game. In UNC’s last game, they lost to Baylor in the bowl, while having their best offensive weapon suspended and giving up over 600 yards on the ground. So give the Dawgs the old MO advantage too. But, advantages are all pre game and we will find out just what we have when the kickoff is in the rear view. I can’t wait and I know you can’t either.

My prediction is Bulldogs 27-24. It will be close but I’m going with the red and black. What say you?

 J-Dub

Living A Fantasy

It’s late August.  The temp will soon begin to cool. Not much in my neck of the woods but it will cool some so I look forward to it.  With the cooler weather comes other niceties such as the sky getting dark quicker, Halloween, Scary Movies, Thanksgiving and the ultimate holiday, Christmas.  But most importantly, this time of year brings peace to my soul in the form of a pigskin.  Weekends are jam packed with it.  It gets kicked off on Thursday Nights.  Then, Friday Night Lights fuel the flame and are followed by Saturday afternoons ‘Tween the Hedges.  Finally, Sunday and Monday Nights are reserved for the big boys.  Yes, football is back!  And that also means Fantasy Football is back!For those readers of the blog that aren’t familiar, Fantasy Football (FF) is an adults way of acting like a total adolescent for 4-5 months and it be totally understood.  You become a general manager for a football team drafted in your own keen assessments and football knowledge.  As general manager, you set lineups, drop under performing players, pick up diamonds in the rough, navigate waiver wires and block your friends from the happiness that they so desperately seek in their lives.  There are hundreds of ways to play the game but generally, a team consists of a QB, a couple of running backs, couple of wide receivers, a tight end (the subject of countless childish jokes on draft day) and a team defense.  Throw in some bench players and occasional defensive guys and you have your roster.  You take that roster and manage it each week of the season, while playing another GM’a team each weekend.  Whichever team performs the best collectively wins.  The record is tallied at the end of the season and you then go through the playoffs, crowning an ultimate champion.  There are many many variations but that is the quick and dirty tutorial I am going with.FF means that my management of J-Dub’s Ballers, across multiple leagues, becomes one of my top priorities behind family and work, or something like that.  You see, FF has been a part of my life for about 15 years and there are certain standards and demands that have to be met to maintain peak performance.  I have participated in such esteemed leagues as Ballerville (as commissioner), The Big Nut, Toejam, Coke Zero (as co-owner with DJ Shockley), and now more recent leagues such as Devy and Empire.  My newest league, The Dirty Dozen, drafts for its inaugural season this week.  Don’t let anybody tell you that this is easy.  Don’t let anybody tell you that this mistress isn’t worth the time.  Don’t let anybody tell you that she can’t be brutal either.  FF can help strangers become friends and make friends mortal enemies at the same time.  I have friends I would have never met without it.  And I have never tried to embarrass or humiliate anyone more than these friends.  I have my enemies in FF.  Perhaps one of my oldest is Electric Boogaloos.  Alex couldn’t be nicer and is a pleasure to chat with.  But the Boogaloos have put a dagger in my heart on more than one occasion, those bastards.  DeMeco Ryans and his 22 tackles single-handedly eliminated me from playoff contention in 2006, as I entered said playoffs as a #2 seed.  I went on to win a league high (tied with Byron Johnson) 3 championships in that league but I still cringe when I hear the name Demeco Ryans.  We had the pleasure of being in the same league for the better part of 10 years, meaning we squared off annually, sometimes twice a year.  Motivation was never an issue when we would meet.  Although that league came to a close this year, we are entering our 11th season together in a separate league this year.  And I can’t wait.Then there is the Brookwood Brawlers.  Saint is one of my oldest softball buddies and a legit good dude.  But his penchant for taking a dumpster fire of a draft and parlaying it into a championship defeat over the Ballers really steams my scallops.  It has happened twice in the last 4 years alone.  No matter how much I belittle him on draft day, that jack leg winds up in the championship.  Old Petey Guerra and The Iguanas are close behind.  Not so much for the recent history in Ballerville but for the shenanigans from The Big Nut in the mid 2000’s.  Old downward dog himself pulled some rabbits out of the hats in that league.  He’s got a Ballerville championship too but we have remained civil in that league.  My other complaints about his team revolve around draft day, which I will touch on more later.There have been others along the way, Shaq Straw from Wichita, Gotham Batvols, Memphis Mules and Ruudboys to name a few.  But at the top of the list of football rivals may be the closest friend of all, The Tecmo Superstars, Byron “Willie” Johnson.  First off, the nickname Willie.  This “friend” traded me Willis McGahee for Edgerrin James many years ago and it turned out to be one of the worst deals in history.  Thanks in no small part to McGahee’s bum legs.  I began to refer to Byron almost exclusively as Willis McGahee after that, which shortened to just Willis and now has stuck with Willie.  There have been trades since then that have evened out things but that bum deal in 2007 has always stuck in my soul.  It spawned a lifelong nickname for goodness sakes.  In Toejam, our most competitive league (16 teams), he amassed a career record of 85-39 with 21044 points scored. During that same span, I put together a 77-47 record with 20715 pts.  In 120+ career games we were seperated by 7 wins and about 300 total points.  I had 15 playoff wins and he had 14.  We both had 3 championships.  We faced each other 1 time in the championship and I took that matchup.  But even that year, he beat me in the championship in Ballerville.  Of the other major milestones tracked in Jam, he and I split all 5.It all starts with draft weekend, which we just celebrated.  We have a live draft for Ballerville at a rotating location where all owners get together from Chattanooga to Auburn to Americus to Albany.  Willie travels each year from the TN line to spend a weekend at my house, Hustle Headquarters, being wined and dined in an effort to ward off any future McGahee/James deals.  I believe in karma.  We usually spend the weekend playing golf, playing Tecmo Bowl, watching full seasons of “The League” and binge eating junk food.  It’s as close to returning to my childhood as it gets.  Draft weekend typically kicks off the first of multiple drafts over a week span.  We will not have Jam this year thanks to Benedict Shafer Arnold but there are plenty more to go around.  I’m currently in email draft on Empire, Machi League is Tuesday and Dirty Dozen is Wednesday.  That’s a lot of studying, projecting, reading and tweeting over a week.  Injuries need to be assessed, depth charts analyzed and free agent moves recounted.  Keepers are selected, rookie drafts completed and sleepers fawned over.  I told you this isn’t easy.The draft is the most important time of the year as it is when you build your team.  And even though that team will change over the course of the season, your core is decided at the draft.  The draft is also the most mentally consuming event of the season.  Even casual football fans know that Adrian Peterson is a fine running back.  And Tom Brady is one of the greatest quarterbacks of all time.  But how much does that casual fan know about the expected split of touches between Ezekiel Elliott and Alfred Morris.  Who fills the void in Cincy while Tyler Eifert recovers from injury.  What are the Steelers going to do while LeVeon Bell is suspended?  Which rookies have looked good in camp?  Which veterans have lost a step.  Who will be the slot receiver in Indy?  A fan of a particular team can answer those questions about their own team.  But a fantasy owner has to know it all.  We have to be prepared for anything and everything.  Because believe me it will happen.  The season is not won on draft day but it can certainly be lost.  I can think of no other reason that I would need to know who the #4 receiver in Arizona is going to be.While the draft is a proverbial numbnut think tank where minds haven’t worked harder over the past 12 months of actual career employment and day to day living, it is also the home of classic aggravations and buffoonery.  Petey is the king of not knowing when his pick is.  Add to that his penchant for drafting guys that are already taken and getting lost in his color coded folder and you have the draft day nightmare stereotype.  Then you have the guys who moan everytime a player is taken, as if they were the next person on their board but just got beat to it.  Then there’s the guy that hasn’t kept up with offeason moves.  He usually drafts a player way too early that no longer has a starting position with their new team.  He also doesn’t know who’s retired or injured either.  There’s always the fellow that besmirches each pick made as if he is the oracle.  Magazine guy is never prepared for recent news that changes the information in his 2 month periodical.  Then there is over prepared guy with laptops, apps, stat sheets and tendency reports.  I think I have been each of these guys at some point in my career and I’m not proud of any of it.In the end, you have your make believe team and you begin to celebrate each time they perform well and loathe them every time they may do something to help their real team win, but not enough to get you that W. I’m looking at you LeSean McCoy.  It’s really quite strange when you break it down.  I will never own CJ Anderson again because of his 2015 season.  Alshon Jeffery gets hurt too much.  Khalil Mack is enemy number 1 thanks to 5 sacks that took me out of the playoffs last year.  It goes without saying that I’ll never be able to look Willis McGahee in the eye if I ever meet him.  It’s difficult to imagine that these human beings are going through their own personal ups and downs.    For us, they perform or they are out.  It’s a cruel world in fantasy.  But it’s big business these days and it makes me pay attention to so many details I would otherwise miss.  I can’t watch football the same without fantasy.  Sometimes that’s a good thing and sometimes it’s bad.  It’s rather embarrassing to leap from the Thanksgiving dinner table to celebrate a Brandon Pettigrew 2nd quarter touchdown.  But I’d rather have some meaning to all my games rather than depending each week on my home team to provide the fireworks.  It’s the Falcons afterall.  The last piece of fantasy football, and probably the most important, is luck.  Sometimes you have it, sometimes you don’t.  But regardless of draft day dominance or week to week strategy, you’ve got to have some luck to finish the drill.  A referee call, a timely fumble, an otherwise unfortunate injury, a lapse in judgment from your opponent.  The hardest part about being a good fantasy player is appeasing the fantasy spirits.  So much of fantasy is trash talk and shaming, as evidenced by my current GroupMe chat in Devy League.  But, as a part of my belief in karma, I believe that can sometimes bite you in the ass.  I know it has me.  It’s the only explanation I have for some of the harsh ways I’ve lost certain games in the past.  So I’m constantly trying to balance the timing of a sweet zinger to a downtrodden owner with the need for apathy.  Like I said, don’t ever let someone tell you this is easy.  This is one of the only sectors of humanity where you have to be, and it’s acceptable, equal parts confidant, con man, poker player, shrewd negotiator, cool under pressure, trash talker and silent assassin.    The drafts are under way and the season is less than 2 weeks from opening.  I may be hard to reach over the next few months.  I may not make it to your wedding or kids birthday.  I may not answer the door when I see your car in the drive.  But none of it is personal.  I do care.  I just have a fantasy football team to run right now.  And it’s not easy.

J-Dub

Being Daddy

I am privileged.  I have something that not everyone has.  I acknowledge and appreciate that.  It doesn’t make me better than anyone and it’s not really all that rare.  But even though it’s not rare, I am “it” to only two people on this planet.  Just like anything in our lives, it has it’s ups and downs, it’s good and bad.  But the good so outweighs the bad, it’s no doubt one of the top two roles in my life.  It’s something I cherish and it’s something that can bring me to my knees at the same time.  And in a world where we work more than we play and we pay bills and buy groceries and have so much responsibility, it is the single most important thing I do everyday.  You probably know where I’m going just by reading the title but “it” is being a father.

To set the record straight right off the bat, I understand that a mother has her role as well.  Sometimes there is just mom and sometimes there is just dad.  To all of those people, you have my respect for doing it alone.  It’s not easy and I’m thankful and fortunate that I don’t have to do it alone.  I’ve also only been through 9 years of it so far but it’s been a whirlwind learning experience.


I like to think that I’ve always been good with kids.  I’ve had little cousins and kids of friends but being good with kids for a couple of hours is not the same as being a parent 24/7.  That’s a hard reality that hits you on night number 1.  And if you’re like me, that first night is one of the toughest nights of your life.  You’re already tired and wired at the same time because of the major event that has taken place.  Then you realize that your wife’s tank is totally empty.  I placed the crib on my side of the bed to try and let Alicia get as much rest as possible but to also be able to constantly check on Bailey as she slept.  When I say constantly, I mean every 5 minutes or so.  I didn’t sleep a wink that first night we were home.That’s when it starts to sink in.  There is a living, breathing tiny human being that is your responsibility now.  I mean total responsibility.  The pressure that came with that realization was heavy.  I would sit and watch Bailey sleep and just think of what I needed to do and change to be successful at this Daddy thing.  Nine years later, I’m laying beside her as I type this, just as I have done almost every night of her life, to help her go to sleep.  Unlike Georgia, who has mercifully been a good sleeper since birth, Bailey has always needed stuffed animals and coddling and any other thing that makes her comfortable.  I keep thinking any day that she’ll grow out of it but I don’t mind it so much because I think I need it sometimes too.Children get sick.  It’s what they do.  They run fevers, they have coughs and runny noses, they get strange rashes and bumps and bruises come out of nowhere.  That has been the toughest part of being a daddy so far.  I’m sure things shift when they start driving and dating and things like that.  But so far, my online PHD has been the source of many sleepless nights.  But much of that has to do with the protective responsibility you feel as a parent. You always want your kids to feel well and live an overall healthy life.  You do whatever you can to ensure that.  Sunscreens, bug spray, coats, hats, baby gates, grocery cart covers, reminding them 1,000 times to stay out of the road, you name it.  I am overboard at that.  We have talked about the hypochondriac in me before.  I have created so many nightmare scenarios in my mind over the last 9 years.  I put their everything on my shoulders.  

Each day has some fun twist that reminds me of how my responsibilities have changed.  What happens if I lose my job?  What if I can’t pay the bills?  What if I get in an accident with them in the truck?  What if I take my eye off of them in the grocery store for too long?  What if I leave something laying around the house that G puts in her mouth?  What if I don’t check on Bailey enough when she’s playing outside?  The common theme in that is me dropping the ball somehow.  I can’t screw up.  There’s a lot of pressure being a dad.

There are positives though, remember?  Bailey and I have always been close.  She’ll tell you immediately that she’s a daddy’s girl.  She likes watching scary movies with me.  She has developed my affinity for sports cards.  She rides the scary stuff at the amusement park that mommy won’t ride with me.  She loves Deftones and Thrice.  She drinks Diet Dr. Pepper.  She truly likes being with me, at least right now.  I know that will change one day and while I’ve really been thankful for her growing independence, I am not prepared for the day she may not need me.  I guess it means you’ve done your job when that day comes but it’s not much of a reward.

I’ve started getting that attention from G lately too.  She is still a mama’s girl but I keep reminding Alicia that it’s slowly changing.  There are certain things that she only wants daddy to do.  She wants me to put her in bed at night.  She likes “daddy’s truck”.  She likes sitting on the couch with me after work while I unwind.  She likes to climb and play games but it’s us together.  I think she likes our little one on one meals too.  We get those from time to time and she is usually very well behaved and content.  She really got a kick out of swimming last weekend at PCB.  She wanted me to play with her all weekend.  We jumped, she rode my back, I threw her in the air and she loved it all.  She kept saying “Pool Pool”.  It’s those memories that offset the sleepless nights wrought with worry.  

We have recently started going fishing as a family.  It started pretty hectic and tense.  Bailey wants everything her way.  Georgia is exploring the boat.  Alicia and Bailey fish in the trees a little too much.  But this past Saturday I had a moment where G was sitting by me drinking her juice and Bailey was celebrating taking off her own fish and putting her own cricket on the hook and again, it made it all worth it.  I want to give my girls every opportunity to enjoy the things that I enjoyed growing up.  My dad took me fishing and I thumbed through baseball cards and I watched scary movies.  I loved my childhood and have written about it many times.  I want them to love theirs one day.    I want them to remember me as the dad that got in the floor with them, that took them to some memorable places, that taught them to fish, that held their hand walking around a store, that introduced them to Gremlins and King of the Hill.  Most of all, I want them to know that they were taken care of.


There is so much crap that is at their fingertips these days, I want to just focus on the simple, fun memories.  They may never get to do everything that other kids do.  But they will never question my love for them or their mother.  They will not know what it’s like to wonder if daddy will show up for the school program or field day.  It breaks my heart to see grown men throw away such opportunities.  It breaks my heart more to see little girls (and boys) that don’t feel that love.  It’s not fair to them and I don’t want my girls to ever feel that.  I wish I could get others to see what I see when I look at my girls when they smile.  Sometimes it never clicks with a mom or dad.  I don’t understand how that can happen but I’ve seen it time and time again.  

Our kids are not burdens.  Can they be?  Sure, I want a quiet afternoon nap sometimes.  I want the TV all to myself.  I want to be able to decide what I want to eat and when sometimes.  But I made the decision that I was ready to have children.  Part of that decision was understanding that it wasn’t going to be about me anymore.  We have been over blessed with grandparents that help us out at a moments notice.  It’s wonderful for all of us.  Alicia and I get to spend time together and our kids get to know their grandparents like we knew ours.  I spent as much time as I could at my granddaddy’s and I miss him all the time.  I needed that relationship growing up.  So do Bug and G.  So I can understand that parents that don’t have much help can get overburdened and can feel that it’s just too much.  But that doesn’t change what they need from us.  They need us to guide them and to show them what love is.  Society is not going to teach them what love is or what sacrifice is or what dedication is.  That’s for us to do.  It’s what we signed up for.

I’m going to do my best to do that. It’s a lot of pressure.  Two little people are dependent on me (and Alicia) to understand the world around them.  The way they function in and contribute to our world rests on my shoulders for now.  Of course, they can go in whatever direction they choose but I will do everything in my power to give them a compass.  I admire and respect each and every one out there that does the same.  There are some awesome parents that I am friends with and that have helped me through some of the confusing or stressful times.  Then there are my parents and in-laws.  I don’t have any more answers than the next guy.  But I have the heart and I have a tremendous support group around me that helps me have the answers.  All of that has given me faith and confidence that I’m doing the right thing.  It’s made a daunting task a little easier to live with.  And then the little smiles gives me the strength to do it another day.

J-Dub

Who Am I?

As we age, we start to try and figure out some things. Some are important, meaning of life type things. Others are simple, like how to put on a toilet paper roll correctly, up and over of course. But what’s more difficult is trying to figure out things about ourselves. We usually have an idea of how other people see us based on how we see ourselves. Never mind the fact that we can be bias and are almost always wrong. We also usually have an idea of how we want to portray ourselves. Again, the person we portray is not always who we are. So, the question becomes, “who are we?” Or more specifically, “Who Am I?”

 It is one of the troubling questions you begin to ask yourself when you have reached mid life. And no, I’m not talking about a mid life crisis. I am talking about understanding what we have been, what we can become and what we might always be. Some of it is hard to accept so we don’t like those answers and keep looking. We think “that can’t possibly be one of my traits”, and we blindly look for a more suitable answer. On the other hand, we run across something that we are proud of and we embrace that trait and pat ourselves on the back. I think that’s ok though. If we are going to really be honest with ourselves, we are going to need some good to go with the bad. We really just need to hope there is enough to even it out. I am trying to be honest with myself, though difficult at times. So I am going to try and be honest with you as I try and answer the question with the information I currently have as I near 40.

 I Am An Introvert – Yeah, believe it or not, I am. I can open up with my closest friends and family and let my guard down. In that regard, I may not be a full blown introvert. It is not debilitating but it is very much there. When I play softball with a new team, I may not say 10 words the whole day of a tournament. When I go to a meeting with new co-workers, I find my seat and keep to myself unless someone comes up to me. I’d rather hang out at my house than go out and do something. I’d rather watch a football game in my recliner than at a sports bar or even in person, unless it’s a huge game. I haven’t always been this way either. I used to have to be the center of attention. I used to be the comedian of the group. Now, only certain people get to see that side of me, God help them!

 I Am A Hypochondriac – I know this one is a shocker for some of you. It’s bad though. I am pretty sure I have emotionally had every major disease you can have. It’s even worse with my kids. Brain Amoebas, Flesh Eating Virus, Meningitis, all of the really bad ones. I take some of the craziest leaps when it comes to health concerns. I totally understand that these are legitimate concerns to parents and no one wants to go through these things. I just don’t have a rational way of dealing with the thoughts about them. I can reach a point of incapacitation. I can’t think, I can’t function, I can only see one thing. I have improved some in this area but not much. I do have to stay away from the internet when it comes to medical questions though.

 I Am Kind Hearted – I usually don’t like the thought of anyone not liking me. Please don’t tell me that there really is someone out there that doesn’t. I try to go out of my way sometimes to make sure I haven’t hurt someone’s feelings. I am that guy that takes a dime back into the store because I got too much change. I am the guy that tries to remember every detail of conversations to pick up on things that you like so I can try to brighten your day in the future. I remember birthdays and anniversaries and other important dates. It makes me feel good when others feel good. I truly would rather give than receive. That is one that I am proud of.

 I Am Trustworthy – Of course, I have been dishonest or a letdown just like anyone else. I am no saint. But I believe in trust and honesty. I think that is one of the tenets of our society, which is not one of our strong points. In my honesty, I believe what everybody’s grandma use to say, that if you don’t have something nice to say, sometimes you should say nothing at all. I have put my foot in my mouth before but I have generally been able to hold my tongue when I had to. Being trustworthy and honest is one of the things that has advanced me in my career and I know that. It is why I have been married to the same lovely woman for 15 years. It’s given me a lot of opportunities I wouldn’t have otherwise been afforded.

 I Am Irreverent – I have a sick sense of humor. Nothing really offends me and nothing is out of bounds. It can sometimes get the best of me and it definitely battles with my kind hearted side. Think about the paradox of never being offended and always thinking I have offended someone. While there is no out of bounds, I sometimes forget where other’s boundaries are. I like hard core comedians. I don’t mind foul language. I can laugh at myself as much as laughing at something else. I think I have a great sense of humor. It’s just not for everyone. So next time I share that questionable meme on FaceBook, just roll your eyes and move along.

 I Am Jaded – This one is tough. I know that I am though. I have seen too much of certain things and not enough of others. I have seen both sides of the philanthropic figure head. I have seen both sides of the religious FaceBook poster. I have seen both sides of the wealthy and the poor. You know the old saying, “If it seems too good to be true, it probably is”? Yeah, that’s what I think about a lot of people. Sometimes I’m right and sometimes I’m wrong. Again, I am not perfect. But usually, I have to see some true colors before I am all in. Or either, I see your true colors and I am out and there is no bringing me back in. Like I said, it’s a tough one to live with but it’s deep rooted at this point.  

I Am Loyal – To go along with some of the comments of being jaded, on the flip side, if you show me that I can believe in you, I’ll be as loyal a friend as you’ll ever have.  I reserve my best for family and close friends.  If you’re in the circle, it’s a tight circle and I’ve got your back.  There aren’t many people that can fit in the circle so it does mean you are special to me.  I’m polite and kind to everyone I meet if they are the same to me.  But it’s “ride or die” for my closest.

I Am A Husband – I get a lot wrong at home.  I don’t do things exactly like Alicia wants them done.  Sometimes I’m mentally checked out from these other things that “I Am”.  But I know what my priorities are in life.  I enjoy playing sports and Alicia picks up my slack when I do but I’m home every night, our bills are paid, I pull my weight with house duties and I’m a one woman man.  She knows what she means to me and I try to remind her more often than I make her forget.  All of the positive things I am above, I try to be to her the most.  I have so much to improve on but I work on it all the time.

I Am A Father – Anybody who knows me well, knows what my girls mean to me.  My life changed forever in 2007.  It wasn’t about me anymore.  It took me a while to realize it but I get it now.  My life revolves around their well being, their safety, their happiness and their growth.  I’ve done a lot of things that I would’ve never done 10 years ago just to make them happy.  And they are stuck to me like glue so they must like me a little bit too.  I spend a lot of time worrying about them and life is harder and more pressure packed but that’s the trade off for the smiles, laughter and hugs.  Just like being a husband, I am a work in progress but I’m further along than I was when Bailey was born.

I guess I’m really a lot of other things too.  I’m a Bulldog, I’m a marginal athlete, I’m a hard worker (mentally), I’m a sports junkie, I’m a dreamer, I’m a half brained philosopher, and I’m a middling wordsmith.  I’m also selfish, I’m a procrastinator, I’m a junk food addict, I’m lazy and I’m uninspiring sometimes.  A lot of good and a lot of bad so I guess you have to decide whether I’m your cup of tea or not.  I’ll probably stop being some of these things at some point and start being other things eventually.  I’ll probably trade in the marginal athlete for the part time hammock sleeper or something along those lines.  Maybe the last thing I am is a realist.  So I am learning to embrace the good and bad and trying to accept what they both bring to my makeup.  I’d love to add millionaire and statuesque heart throb to the list but I am what I am.  I am.

J-Dub